Happy Sunday

Alienated. Powerlessness. Hopelessness.

At this point in time, masasabi kong alienated ako. Ang hirap pala ng ganitong sitwasyon. I feel trapped in a situation wherein there could be a solution but I just can't find the way how to establish that solution.

Ang hirap. Masakit sa puso. I feel like crying all day. At wala pa akong masabihan ng problema ko. Para bang ayoko na lang. Ayoko sa lahat ng bagay. Nawalan na ko ng gana. Ang malungkot pa nito, para sa pamilya ko lumalayo ang loob ko.

"It's not about the money". Ulol mo Jessie J. Anong it's not about the money?

HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY. </3

Siguro nga bipolar ako. Dahil ang bilis kong magbago ng mood. Pakiramdam ko nga pwede na akong artista eh. Biruin mo konting kibot lang, kaya kong magpalit ng emotion at mood. O diba? Konting workshop na lang sa ABS pwedeng pwede na.

Ayoko na. Pagod na ko. Konti na lang baka di ko na to kayanin. Ayokong sumuko. Pero ang hirap magpatuloy sa mga panahon na pakiramdam kong wala akong kapangyarihan para baguhin ang mga nangyayari.

Sana pagkatapos nito, maging okay na ko. Makabalik na ko uli sa dati. At makapagfocus ako sa mga ginagawa ko.

Kaya mo yan Janneth. Wag kang susuko! AJA!

Nakakainis.

Alam mo yung feeling na may time at gusto mo nang magsulat pero di ka makasulat dahil wala ka sa mood? BV.

This feeling.

I hate this feeling. Yung feeling na mag isa ka. Wala kang kasama. Walang nagmamahal sayo. Well, I know that God and my family loves me pero what is lacking is the feeling of being cared by my friends. I know I'm not the bestest friend for them pero bakit parang may exemption? Na parang, Am I not part of your circle of friends? Para bang they just know m when they need me or they remember me. Hay. I don't want to speculate things because I kow they have their own reasons for that. Smile Janneth. Be happy.

 Plus this insecure thingy is pissing me off. Okay. I admit. I happened to be insecured with them but I try to compose myself. I am not insecure. So what if there are things that they are better than me? That does mean I'm weaker than them? Its all about the faith. I know God would put me into good places. He'll never leave me. Right? Take this things as a challenge in your life for me to be better person.

Be happy Janneth. Smile. Don't let bad vibes ruin how you look into life. Okies?